dancing. not ballet or anything like that. like club music beyonce shit u know? hahah GET LOWW TO THE FLOO! haha  i fucked up my finger lol i have 3 bandaids on it right now. stupid fake nails lol

so i've been out in cali. it's been cool. lol today angel gave me a heart attack driving 103 mph in these like deserted streets haha they were laughing at me screaming lol i can't help that i've been in 2 crashes already! lol

KISS ME I'M EMPLOYABLE! hehe man i miss having a bf lol 

oh yeah i'm 19! haha nothing has changed! lol damn i wanna go clubbing!!! ferrr shurrr haha and i wanna get fuckin drunk b4 i have to go back to school!!! grrrr for new years i was blind stinking sober! lol cuz i had to drive home -____-

holy shit the song in my headphones just scared me half to death hahah i thought someone was here hahah i really should go to sleep. so i probably will soon.

HALLOWEEN!  it's easily my fave holiday. but this year it doesn't feel the same. i don't have the same excitement, no one seems to care about it. i haven't carved a pumpkin, decorated a house or watched a halloween special and halloween is like 5 days away. i have my costume, but still i don't have the spirit this year. i guess it's cuz i don't feel like i have a real home u know? my dad's out here and won't let me decorate. my mom lives with her aunt in texas and she doesn't want us to decorate her house either. so no bats, vampires, pumpkins, spiderwebs, BLOOD! haah nothing. i just hope it's fun on halloween. cuz if it's not then that would suck nard. oh well. i'm starting to be convinced that the older you get the less fun holidays become.  which sucks cuz i love holidays.

anyway that's it. bye

yeahhhh got fucked up lol it was fun till i started gettin naseous and that hasn't gone away since that night. but yeah my friends told me to quit telling my dad everything lol and for some reason they were mad at angel but i didn't know what was going on lol i'm oblivious that way. anyway they totally took advantage of all us girls when we were playing twister. i have the photos to prove it haha bianca was taking them cuz she was in shorts and didn't wanna play. and i didn't even know they were doing it cuz my head was down the whole time! so when i got my camera back and uploaded the pics i was like WTF MAN!?? haha.

omg twinkle is freaky, she cries blood. SHE'S A VAMPIRE! hahah (true blood refrence) poor little girl.

it's 2 am and i can't sleep. my dad offered to buy me tylonol pm but i'm afraid of getting hooked on pills to go to sleep. idk why i can't sleep anymore. i used to sleep just fine b4. fuck i'm hungry hahah idk if i should eat though. SPICE WEASEL! haha futurama rules.

anywho i'm bored. so no more writing..

laters.